F.N.A.F. | In the Flesh | A.U. | "We Need To Talk About Jackson" | Part 5

Jackson fixed his mouth to say...

Jackson: "So this is what happened. Jason wanted to go on what I believe was a double date. You went with him, but you didn’t know he planned to bring my sister, Eva, along. She's a gorgeous brunette, so, of course, he thought you'd like her.

Jason brought was his girlfriend, Meghan, and my sister, Eva. Meghan was blonde, athletic, and very attractive. Meanwhile, You thought my little sister, Eva, was plain. You believed Eva was... too ordinary, and You told Jason about how you felt, and Jason repeated that to me.

That isn’t why I’m doing this, though. It would be absurd to go this far over an insult about my sister. To be honest, my sister, Eva, and I don’t even have that great of a relationship. What mattered was what came next—because that’s when I started to suspect you might have done the same thing to me with Samantha.

I knew you were never satisfied with... most of your partners... I know you cheated on your wife—that’s why your marriage ended. you’re unfaithful. you betray people. you aren’t loyal to anyone: not your ex-wife, Hannah, not your friends, and certainly not me. You couldn’t even respect your own friend's relationship.

I found out in front of your date, my sister, Eva, you tried to cheat with Jason’s girlfriend, Meghan. Meghan rejected you multiple times. Jason has no idea because you flirted with her when he wasn't around and my stupid sister, Eva, has always been afraid of conflict... So... She never told him. I never told him, because I needed both of you working together to help me. Having more support mattered. Four hands caring for a baby are better than one . I couldn’t have managed otherwise.

Keeping this from him wasn’t about protecting you. It was about protecting myself. My life was already falling apart. I couldn’t handle two people abandoning me at once. I needed them to help me with Cailee. Honestly, I believe you’re the reason his girlfriend is dropping out of helping me out. Not only that, but She’s afraid to tell Jason what happened because she worries you’ll twist it or claim she misunderstood. Meghan also told me directly that you called her delusional because she rejected you. After that, Then you left the date—thankfully.

After that, I sat there thinking. I started wondering about the other woman, Brianna—the one you were texting when your wife caught you cheating. The one who sent you that Bikini pic.

I also reflected on how jealous I used to be before Samantha died and how hard I tried to suppress it. I was constantly worried about Samantha’s fidelity. She wasn’t perfect. Samantha cheated on me once in high school, once in college, and three times during our marriage.

However, All of that happened long before the pregnancy, which is why I’m confident my daughter, Cailee, is mine... Sort of... I guess... A small part of me thinks Cailee is... um... your... Kid...

Even so, learning what you did with Jason unsettled me deeply. I trusted you not to cross that boundary with a friend’s partner. When I realized you had, I began to wonder if you had done something worse—if you might have crossed a line with my wife, Samantha.

That’s when I did something completely unhinged. I know how insane it sounds—because it was. About two days after that date, I took the VR headset and met someone. I didn’t go to a church. I went to the opposite of one—something closer to a satanic temple. They claimed they thrived on agony. They needed suffering. I had more than enough of it. You had pain too. I believed my emotional state could be used.

I decided to curse the game. I asked for help—help summoning something. And I did. Its name was Agony. We worked together. My intention was to put you through suffering because I believed there was a chance you had impregnated my wife. I was terrified Cailee might not be mine. I wasn’t prepared to be a father. When the baby was born a girl, I struggled even more.

I thought pain would somehow balance everything. I believed there was a small possibility that you were the father. Instead of acting rationally, I cursed the situation so you would experience pregnancy with something mechanical—something impossible to deliver—something that would make the experience unbearable. I chose pregnancy specifically because... Okay, hear me out, it wasn’t a fetish. That would have been sick. My reasoning was that childbirth would be excruciating and destructive.

That belief is why I had issues with the idea of trans women becoming pregnant. I knew it would be extremely dangerous. I was against trans women giving birth because I believed it would likely kill them. Their bodies aren’t designed for it; the biological structures simply aren’t there because of their biological sex being male.

So I made a choice. I know how insane this sounds. I truly do. And I’m sorry for what I did. I led things to you enduring suffering. I only wanted you to suffer; That was my only intention. I convinced myself that if you were Cailee's father, if you had stayed away, Samantha wouldn’t have died. I blamed you completely.

I never harmed my child. I would never hurt Cailee. I was just terrified that you were the reason she grew up without a mother. In my mind, if you were the father, then if you hadn’t impregnated Samantha, none of this would have happened. So I wanted you to experience a pregnancy meant to destroy you—one that could kill you during childbirth...

Not because I gave you a womb, but because there would be no way for the child to be born due to you having no female biology to help you endure it because the female body in the female sex is so extensive when it comes to reproduction...

there is so much that goes into it that men don't even know about... So much that's done in the female body to make the birth easier & safer... That includes even things the baby's body has to go through just to not kill the child's mother...

Most women don't even know about it and I knew if I had a man go through pregnancy without those biological safeguards that women have, he'd die horribly."

To be continued...