Little Bundle of Joy

Little Bundle of Joy

My mother-in-law got a DNA test and it ruined my child's life…

I am Maria Jackie Jackson & I am not an adulterer. I had been at home alone while my husband was at work & a man broke in & forced himself onto me. I ended up pregnant, I wanted to believe the child was my husband's & so did he, so we never got a DNA test.

I just decided to believe it was his baby, not the man who victimized me. When I was pregnant, I had grown a bond with my child overtime, which I learned is due to a biological process in pregnancy where your brain builds oxytocin for your child, and causes the child to automatically build it for you; Their hearts even beat faster at the sound of your voice.

When I gave birth, I don't know what this was, it was like a flash of deep love came over me, it was euphoric and I can't explain it. It's totally unique to mothers around the world to me, I don't know how to put it into words because I can't.

I do love my Princess I named Heaven. Heaven was my Bundle of Joy for a while, and my husband, José, chose to believe that she was his, but his mother, Rebecca, knew better than both of us.

Years later, Rebecca assumed I was cheating. I was black. My husband, José Jackson, is Mexican. My child, Heaven, appears white. Most Mexicans in Mexico are half-Spanard, Half-Indigenous Mexican, so there are some who look white as Spaniards originate from Spain & Spain is in Europe.

My husband, José, used that as a reason why my child, Heaven, may appear white. José wanted to believe Heaven's genes came from the European Spanish side of Mexico.

José was always kind to Heaven; This made me happy. I never wanted Heaven to feel bad or left out, she was technically an only child as I didn't know my husband couldn't produce sperm at that time.

Neither of us knew. Rebecca became a thorn in my side, Rebecca always asked José to divorce, which was despicable. I may not like my future son-in-law, but I can't just ruin my child's marriage.

Nonetheless, I treated her with respect because Rebecca was my husband's mother, and many people will defend their parents as they love them. I can't believe I had to succumb to this fate after all I've done for their family.

It is not my fault, but I do wish I had told Rebecca about the assault. I feel Rebecca may have had a different attitude.

One day, when Heaven was Seven, I took Heaven to Disneyland alone. I wanted mother-daughter time & my husband wanted a break from parenthood, so I killed two birds with one stone.

When I get back, José was crying in the dining room. I usually try to let José handle his own thing because whenever I ask José "What's wrong?" José typically doesn't want to answer.

I took my little bundle of Joy to my room to play Fortnite on my computer. When I went to see Jose, he showed me a DNA with Heaven's name on it.

I got three new revelations:

1. My mother-in-law got a DNA test behind my back.

2. My child is not my husband's

3. For some reason, when it came to the sex chromosomes, there was "XXX" Listed, and that actually is an intersex disorder where a child has THREE X chromosomes instead of TWO.

I knew that Rebecca had gotten it from my child's hair because Rebecca had a brush that Rebecca used to brush her hair at home. I was infuriated & confused.

Rebecca usually was nice to my child. I'm not saying you shouldn't get a DNA test, but it can affect a child's life drastically because they're people, too, not just situations.

Heaven was gonna go through a confusing time. I just looked at the 0% chance of José being the father listed.

José was a really good man, so I comforted him & we both went to Therapy. Our daughter was meant to be in the dark, I hadn't talked to her about rape since it wasn't on my mind to at the time, I was just living life with her. José didn't like talking about it because it was traumatic for him to.

I also knew children conceived during rape become hateful of themselves, they feel like they weren't meant to be here and may start doing drugs to cope. I refused to put her through that.

I still loved her, and I wanted her to know that. José became… Dark-Hearted. I love him, but he grew… Dark. Heaven & José grew apart, what made it worse for me was that the growing apart was one sided.

Heaven would run around trying to please him, and José would resent & dismiss her. José was troubled, so I encouraged her to find new friends her age to do all the fun stuff they used to like together.

Heaven found 1 new friend, a girl named Mia, & José hated Mia. Mia was European, a French Immigrant.

Mia was white, like my attacker, and he grew a newfound rage & racism against white people.

Mia was sweet to us, but I never let her be alone with José. Mia's parents ended up learning of an incident that happened 4 weeks after meeting Mia that made me tell Heaven not to bring anymore white children home to José.

Mia was at my house with her parents, Damien & Mariah, in my yard swimming in my pool. My husband was with them.

I go outside & leave Heaven with Mia & see José drowning Damien with Mariah getting out of the pool frantically.

I slap José to get him off of Mia's innocent father & José laughs because he said "It was a prank!"

Damien cursed out José in bitter rage, "You tried to kill me! He tried to kill me, this man is a psychopath!" Then Damien began screaming at my husband in French.

José screamed at him in Spanish, they got into a fist fight which Mariah & I split apart, I was pulling José because I didn't trust Mariah with him because José just tried to kill Damien. Mariah just took a hold of Damien and pulled him away.

Mia came out & So did Heaven. Mia & her family had full French accents, José has a Mexican accent, but José still said "You sound like an illegal alien, where are your papers?!"

Now, José is a legal immigrant, but he still didn't have the right to suggest they may not be here legally since there's a huge stigma attached to that & people tend to discriminate against people like that.

What is odd is that Damien did not get offended; Damien just became extremely confused.

"What are you talking about? I got my paperwork done in a jiffy, it took me 4 years to get legalized, but I'm a citizen, & how would you know that? Many french-Americans sound like me & are citizens!" Said Damien.

José was just throwing racist comments at Damien, José did not know any slurs against the French, so he used Mexicans slurs for white people instead.

José called him a "Gringo!" Repeatedly, Mia was confused, & Damien had no idea what the word meant, repeatedly asking "What the heck is a Gringo?!" Super confused.

"Gringo" is a Spanish word that literally means "foreign, foreigner, or gibberish." "Gringo" is a derogatory term for a person, especially an American, who is not Hispanic or Latino.

Damien is French, not Mexican, & knew no Spanish. I did not translate that to Damien because if he knew what it meant, it would turn into a fight. I didn't want them to fight.

Mia & Heaven were seen backing away from the scene. The girls looked so awkward; Their friendship is probably ruined because of this.

I said that because when the parents don't get along, they begin to separate the children from each other and then alienate the children from each other.

The children don't hate each other and aren't horrible people to each other, but because the parents don't like the parents of their child's friend, both parents end up turning the children against each other.

I knew that Mia & Heaven were never gonna be the same. Mia's visits after that were few & far in-between, but Heaven & Mia were rebellious, at least, Mia was.

Mia would sneak around with Heaven on her downtime.

Mia was not allowed over to our home, Mia wouldn't come to my house. She snuck around at parks, playgrounds, stores, malls, skating rinks, & Ice cream parlors.

I figured out most of this when Heaven would go off to the park alone, but when I would track that phone I tricked her into accepting it by simply giving it to her without telling her there was a tracking app on it, she'd be somewhere else, usually.

When I'd drive to the area, she'd be with Mia alone with no parents. Granted, that was my fault. I was a semi-free range parent, I let Heaven walk to school, the park & The store alone because my neighborhood was good, my family was dealing with the news of her not being mine so we need a bit of a break from parenting, & my attacker was in jail serving 23 years in A federal prison.

I'd scold them & take them both home. Eventually, I facilitated it & followed them. They didn't seem to stop, so I decided to manage the problem.

One day, when Heaven was 9 & Mia was 7, Mia convinced her parents to let her stay over at my house. Mariah & Damien came, too, & José was still devious. Heaven & Mia had a sleepover & Damien & Mariah were overseeing it. José wasn't allowed near the children.

José convinced both parents to leave the room, Heaven & Mia were alone with him. Damien had to pee while Mariah was invited to cook a French meal.

I was downstairs with them, then I heard Heaven screeching in terror & yelling "STOP IT, DADDY! LET MIA GO OR I'LL CUT YOU!!!" With serious lividity & determination.

Mariah, Damien & I all ran up to their room to see José smothering Mia while Heaven grabbed scissors & clipped José's arm, then kicked him in the privates.

Heaven was angry because Mia was 7. "You can't do that, she's just a little girl!" Heaven yelled.

Mia was crying hysterically as Heaven got in front of her, I was in shock that Heaven would protect someone against her father like that. Heaven didn't even need the scissors.

Damien attacked José. As José ran to hurt my baby & Mia, yelling "I'm gonna kill you!" Damien grabbed him by the shoulders screaming "Don't touch them!" & bashed him against the floor and began Punching.

Mariah joined in. Mariah choked him, so I pulled her away. I had to let go of her to call 911 so she punched him with Damien while Heaven ran away with Mia. I called the police on my husband & about the altercation.

I saw the police come & Arrest José. I bailed him out once I had the money to. José was in jail for 3 years.

Heaven loved her & Heaven had no idea of the situation surrounding her. Mia wasn't inclined to see my family, but was still friends with Heaven.

Heaven just skyped Mia secretly throughout those years. Mia & Heaven were inseparable.

I knew José wasn't fit to be with us since I was well-aware he'd hurt Heaven, so we seperated. I still was there to comfort José & let him know that I was gaining money to bail him out of jail for 3 years, even though he went to jail for trying to smother Mia with a pillow.

José explained to our therapist that "I tried to kill Mia to get back at White people. My wife's rapist was white & my daughter is the white child of a rapist. I hated the rapist for a long time, when I saw my daughter was his, I snapped. I chose to hate all white people, even my own daughter makes me sick because she ain't mine."

José says these words that made me not want to end our legal separation "Heaven is Hell."

He clearly didn't love Heaven anymore. I refused to tell Heaven that.

To Be Continued…