F.N.A.F. | In the Flesh | A.U. | "We Need To Talk About Jackson" | Part 11

After some parties, I got bigger. So much so that people at work and the parties started noticing. At these parties, I drank a bit, not too much because I didn't wanna do anything embarrassing, but I did smoke a bit. Couldn't smoke too much because... Well... Yeah, cancer...

I did like to smoke the leaf a bit. I was watching Jason get smashed while his girlfriend was at Jackson's house helping Jackson raise Cailee.

I tried to get girls to head off in the back with me,.. but they all rejected me and kept saying weird stuff like "I'm into Cis-Gendered men."

They'd ask me "Do you have a husband whose cis or a trans wife? 'Cuz... Like.... You had to have gotten pregnant from somewhere." They were dead serious. They kept telling me "You look... Like.... 7 months pregnant."

I started feeling... Emasculated... By my own belly... I immediately left the party that day and went home. I was quite high, I couldn't drive. Jason was smashed, so I called a cab. I don't know how I was even able to think to do that as people get dumb when they're high.

I had the cab drive me home. It was odd because the driver kept congratulating me on "my baby," and saying "I had a baby. My wife was the one pregnant, though."

I went back in my house, eyes all red and assumed I was trippin'.

I go home and realize there are articles online while I'm in my room just cruising my P.C. As it seems, my predicament has left people claiming I'm a trans man... They're saying "He's a woman in disguise..."

I'm not. I'm a Cis-gendered male. My sex is male, I am male. I have actual male parts. I have never felt so embarrassed in my life. I'm gonna make myself more wealthy.

The lawsuit was honestly horrid. I was able to prove I was male with my bodily anatomy, can't tell you how. To make sure you know I didn't just... Show myself off in court. I was in a photo taken for court that the judge requested as proof of my biological sex.

They compared my body to Tran's men's to see if there was a difference. It was so embarrassing that this needed to be done. I felt like... I wasn't a real man anymore.

With the women thinking I was impregnated by a "wife," thinking I was not even born a man, thinking my sex was female... I had never felt more emasculated and I wanted to cry deep down but was so emasculated, I couldn't let myself do it in fear they'd feel they were right.

I had to leave court to do so.

I didn't want to have to show them anything of myself. It was the most humiliating thing. I'm just happy that only a male judge saw it. I don't want a woman to see me.

To be continued...